i wish i'll be back soon ~

there is raining outside,
it is an absolute joy to me that it has been raining..
at least for the past 2 days in kk..
it makes the outdoors feel like air-conditioned rooms,
yea.. i love rainy days,
they are just beautiful,
but not in the emotional way..
just the naturally beautiful way..

wil back to hometown another 15 minutes,
my brother keeps calling me,
know that he is worrying the samething with me,
know that he is not in a peaceful mind last 2 days,
i bet both of us need a hug to support each other,
i must admit that he is a good son and a good brother,
proud that i have a brother like him,
i thanks God and thanks my parents that gave him to me,
who can always understand me and wipe my tears,
who can always support me and advice me nothing to fears,
who can always be there without judge,
yay.... all and all, i love him so much.. *GRINN*

hmn... so many love flying around recently,
which makes me sort of headache..
i dont know what to do honestly..
because its not a right time to think about it now,
i have bigger issues to bear in mind, to worry about,
please dont bother me with those things especially in this period.
i like a healthy friendship..
just maintain the way we are now..
please dont push me away .. okay?

well, some girls might feel proud in this kind of situation,
but to be frank, i just want to be simple and ordinarily girl,
just maintain the life i have now,
prefer surrounded by buddies rather than those who are annoying,
its sort of game that wasting time and energy,
its sort of game that not suitable me,
solving problem is not my expertise,
so guys, stop there and give me a break ya..

lastly, take good care everyone >_<
i might unable to online when my time in kudat,
i might unable to get update news from you guys,
remember to keep it all and update to me when im back,
i wish things will getting alright soon,
i wish i'll be back soon.. *cheers*


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my recent update ~

Wow I haven't been here in a long time.
im starting to blog more and more seldom.
oh well.. what to do?
the big "Bz" word coming up..
not that i actually emotionals anyway.. lol

so many things happened but i can't blog about every single thing..
my mind is sorting out now what i can share with you guys here.. :P
well, life was full of ups and down recently,
the wonderful part is i was met up my bunch of buddies,
spent good times with them..
JC, about the pool, u must practise more ya.. hohoho..
so that next time u can challenge me again.. *sigh*
guys, thanks for the hospitality and friendship, its really touched me..!!!
i love you guys.. you guys are definitely friends for life.. *hugz*

the worst part for me is i need to back to my hometown this evening,
for a period of time which requested by my parents,
not sure how long i gotta stay there,
i might no chance to online :(
and i'll become a healthy babe in my hometown.

somemore, i'd lost something which means a lot to me,
i dont know how could i get it back?
wish to go to sg to look for the same one,
but it seems meaningless?
im totally out of idea with it.

LMF, since you're coming to kk on 10th feb,
i'll try my best to arrange my time,
i wish that i able to meet you,
if things not getting worst.. okay?

PC, its really great to get in touch with you again,
thanks for your treat on friday,
sorry that im not in the mode that night,
we can arrange time again after i back to kk. *promise*

VT, sorry for not able to meet you when your time in kk,
my mind was interrupted by some problem,
i really dont feel like hang out,
i know that you're disappointed,
thanks for calling me before your departure,
looking forward to meet you soon. *hugz*

SL, sad that unable to meet you up,
know that you'd back to sg,
thursday night im really sick,
no worries, i might go to sg again after CNY,
and hope that can catch you there.. :P

opps.. gonna stop here,
i got an appointment with someone i love so much..
yea.. got appointment with my Father God..
take care everyone, love ya.. *hugz*


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Tiredness

well, im pretty tired so im going to keep this short.

i didn't go to sleep at all since last night.. 24 hours awake!! stayed up all night bitchin' and drink with those stupid chicks. lol. it's quite interesting honestly.

hmn.. i think body massage can be the best way to cure my tiredness. *give me five*

i love my friends, we had great time here for the last couple days, that's why i haven't written. anyway, i only can stand till 1am tonight, must rest early, therefore, no bitchin' and alcohol for tonight!! *sigh*

but im doubt i can do that, mind was still hyper active right now. lol.

trying to find a nice sentimental song that i heard last night, its touched my heart!! but haven't found it yet.

guys, wish me luck!


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he fell in sick seriously!!

jackson called me this afternoon,
surprisingly, he invited me for a movie..

spent good time with him,
bowling and somes games..
bitching with him at a nice cafe.

its fun, makes me feel alive and young again

sharon, your predict was accurate..
he really fell in sick seriously!!! lol.
faster call up an ambulance for him!!!
beebooo.... beebooo..... beeboo....

nevertheless, i was happy today!!
well, its quite late now..

gotta go sleep.. :-)
still. life is full of ups and downs,

i shall just pray and hope for the best,
so, a thanksgving prayers for today is a must!!!
sweeties.. good night.. have a good rest and nice dream..

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Don't know if you're my good friends?

Didn't sleep well for the past few nights,
nothing particular in mind actually.
was talked over the phone with some friends..
im headache and dozed off by now,
but i got a lot of things that i need to do later,
couldn't get into bed and continue my sleep.
tshin & kc.. your bad!!! lol.

Yeah,

I have a great bunch of good friends.
Don't know if you're my good friend?
If I can talk to you on the phone

without any weird awkward silences,
patient and willing to be your great listener,
bother giving you advice on things,
and i feel comfortable talking to you,
tell you things about me that nobody else knows,
you're my good friend definitely,
regardless of how long i've known you or how far away you are.

i had a dream ~

I had a dream

Sent a text message to my friend,

so i woke up and couldn't go back to sleep.

Thankfully he was awake to sort of keep me company.

He's probably dozed off by now,

but thanks anyway.. *hugz*

Definitely i feeling better now.

It's great to have good friend,

especially a good friend like you.

Charles.. thanks heaps...

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网络 - 我的良伴!!!

正在听着一首首舒缓而忧伤的曲调，
我从旋律中感受到了悲伤，
听着这样的曲子总让人有无限的遐想
心也随之静下来.

夜很深了，所有的朋友也都睡下了.
我又是独自一人坐在这电脑前，
看着朋友们的部落格,
一篇篇的倾诉着心灵的感受,
在这虚拟的空间里,
朋友们都在寻求着心灵的发泄,
究竟在毫无保留的倾诉之时，又有几人在听？

曾在何时,

在孤寂时,网络成了我的良伴,

在悲伤时，我爱上了它,

曾经以为.
逃开了这个真实的世界,
我的灵魂就不至于哭泣.
究竟是网络拯救了我的灵魂,
还是我把灵魂丢失在了网络里？

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please find strength to forgive me...

sometimes

for me
i dont always mean what im said
its just kind humour and stuff
too bad that the damage was done

it doesn't matter if i'm just saying it for a joke..
to be funny, to make people laugh and all that crap..
i know that once i said it...
it still hurts.. it still matters..
it still made other peoples uncomfortable..
even if i didn't mean it.

anyway
i'm sorry with my words
it's my bad
please find strength to forgive me

*hugz*


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我超幸福的... 你们呢?

曾在何时,
蓝色忧郁仿佛是我的心情写照,
曾在何时,
灰色地带仿佛是我的私人专属区,
曾在何时,
这两种颜色仿佛成了我的最佳代表作.

有一道曙光,
划过了我的灰色地带,
照亮了我的心房,
蓝色忧郁被彩虹的色彩所取代,
让我重拾我的欢笑,
让我重新的知道这世界的美好.

我好想给你们一个真诚的拥抱,
也许此刻的你们深觉上天的不公,
也许此刻的你们有着一颗对生活感到疲惫的心,
也许你们曾经尝尽了人世间的冷暖,
希望你们能走出蓝色的心情....
朋友们, 告别灰色的天空吧..
那并不是属于我们的颜色.

现在的我,
正沉浸在彩虹的色彩当中,
好想与你们分享我内心的喜悦,
好想雀跃的与你们述说我的感想,
但这一切的一切,
只能意会而不能言传,
凡事都在于一念之差,
我们的诞生并非偶然,
我们都是在父母雀跃期待的心情下诞生,
我们都是神所祝福的,
所以我们都要幸福的活着,
我会默默的为你们而祈祷,
希望你们有着一颗平静而快乐的心,
也期望你们能有一颗丰盛而感恩的心,
来享受我们的人生, 来体会生活的美.
我想你们一定会发现, 原来我们都是幸福的.

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i love you guys...

woke up early this morning (at least im the earliest)
packing stuff and getting ready to go home,
yea.. will be back soon..
i must admit, i had a great time here,
then for sure that im in a wonderful mood...

but i just come to realize now..
how hard it's gonna be to say goodbye to them later,
goodbye seems to be the hardest word for me..
im not sure when we can meet again..
most probably this coming month of May?
or shall we meet when september ends?

my dear friends,
thanks for all the memories,
thanks for sticking by me,
thanks for being my friends,
and most of all,
you guys are really cooL...
i love you guys... *hugz*





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here comes 2007, leaving 2006 behind!

here comes 2007 , leaving 2006 behind
hmmm.. not even realising...
2006 is the past.. and 2007 is here to greet me..

looking back at 2006
what a year it has been for me..
full of ups and downs...
2006 - a year which i'll never forget..
it's been a wonderful year!!
im defenitely not gonna forget it!!
its been a year which i truly blessed by God..
God has showed me lots of wonders of his work..
he blessed me in so many different ways..
thanks God..

woohoo... im happy now..
its a good sign for me in the 1st day of 2007!!
im sure i'ill have a wonderful year in 2007!!
guys.. be happy and live life to the fullest!!
i gonna go out now,
its time to have fun..
well, this is my post for this lovely evening..
see ya.. bye..

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淡了...散了.. 时间永远是真实的 !!

hi there!!! i found a meaningful article in a book store today..
it's touched my heart honestly, do you?...

时间把我们的爱冲淡
空间把我们的情分散
唯一的电话线
很难把我们系在爱情两端
不要说我们的爱已淡
不要说我们的情已散
找个好的借口
把我们都送回爱情的原点

爱就这样淡了　情就这样散了
我计划的未来没有出现
我经营的爱情宣告破产
爱情原来经不起时间的变迁

爱就这样淡了　情就这样散了
曾经的海誓山盟已不见
我被爱情重重抛在一边
爱情原来熬不住空间的考验


chicks, agree with the statement below? im not sure.. but it's damn CooL... yea!!!
做女人一定要经的起谎言，受得起敷衍，忍得了欺骗, 忘得了诺言，放的下一切, 最后用笑来伪装掉下的眼泪.