我們 - 與愛情無關!!

心情down到谷地, 恰巧你打電話來閑聊, 頓時讓我開懷起來。

打開電腦看回以前我們到台灣出團的照片, 讓我開心起來了。

好慶幸認識你!! 謝謝你帶給我歡樂!!

我珍惜我們之間的純友誼~

是的, 純友誼 ,

就是那種很友好, 很親密又不曖昧的知己,

而又與愛情無關的朋友 !!

Birthday Gift - Hand Lotion

Please pipe up for me~

In my heart I feel as i should restrict my contact with him as more and more I am feeling used, but this scares me as well because i know we both appreciate with each other's friendship. It is a double edged sword and I am having extreme difficulty dealing with it. 

Please pipe up for me~

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please hold tight to me~

Im in this constant struggle again. I feel like i don't need any friends again. I don't know what to do anymore, where to step or where to turn. I wish to take my heart out and throw it out to sea, i wish to take a deep breath and have a good sleep, i wish to find a peaceful mind which i couldn't find on this planet, is there any kind soul can hear me?

I should be strong enough to handle every challenge in my life, but this fear always eat away at me. God in heaven, i am trying to do the best i can, i need you to hold me tight until i fall into everlasting sleep. Please come to me and heal all my wounds,

Please raise me up..

I am still finding strength to overcome the fear..

i hate myself~

I feel so stupid for getting myself into this situation.

So lost. Feel very, very used.

Just feel like running away from it all

We are drifting and i think

we can't be good friends anymore.

I hate myself for being a stupid.

I hate myself more and more...

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you cant see~

i'd lie to myself to the things that everybody knows are truths. sigh.. im just stupid :( i hate myself for being stupid!!!

Silent distance in between us

Dear you, i don know wat's wrong between us. You seems not in the mode recently. I dont ask you, it doesn't mean that i dont care of you. You know i do, you know I'm always here for you. You build a wall in between us, you drag everything into silent and keep it to yourself... Cant we go back as closed as last time? I feel tat you are so far away even that you just sit besides me. You are the friend that i treasured the most. I love you same as i love my family members. Please be happy, i like the old you, i miss the old you. Last time your sms always at my top 1, but recently no calls no sms from you. You got me worried, but i don dare to ask even one words, because i guess you might need time to sort your own problem. I found pressure to call you as well, i don know whether it's a good timing to call you, it's really hurt to listen your cold voice. I wish to save you from your problem, i wish to pull you out from your own world, i wish to say a comfort words to you, i even wish to give you a warm hug, but im afraid.... I pray to God day and night to touch your heart, heal your soul. Pls share with our father God if you feel no one can trust and to share with. Dear you, do always remember that I'm always here for you. Yeah.. I wont walk out when the whole world leave you behind. *hug*

i love my chats with Sid!!

I stayed the whole all night long at home. Most likely because my stomach was bothering me all night, but what can i do? Just have to suck it up until i see my doctor.

Mum and myself were on the phone for quite awhile today. Talking about things/people. You know how we do. Gossip. It's bad, but oh so good!!!

Besides, thousand of thanks to sid, one of my long lost high school mates. Im so touched that he sacrificed his sleeping time just to accompanied me during my sleepless night. Im great that get in touch with him again. :) well, he is a silly dude, he grown up and changed alot. I love my chat with him as i always end up laughing because of his not so witty remarks.

Sid wil come back kk here for 2009 CNY. I'm very excited because I adore spending time with my bunch of high school mates!!! Sid.. waiting for you to come back and reunion ya~ *cheers*

thanks note for 3 dudes

Derrick, Denis and Dovern~

Thank you so so much for being there for me guys.
with the C!-O!-N!-N!-I!-E! CONNIEEEEEE thingy and all.
It was really touching being trusted by you guys!!!
Thanks for not dump me alone when the whole world walks out from me!!
I will find strength to move on~
and i promise.. no more tears from now!!

love you guys~ *hug*

Surprised me with a dozen of roses~

Jayson surprised me with a dozen of roses during my birthday night!!! Thanks Jayson for the surprised!! strawberries hugs for you!!

Even that im not much passionate on roses, but still, im happy when i received it!!! The wonderful surprised not comes from the roses.. but just the way Jayson came to me all in sudden and handed me the roses!! Just the way i like... in a romantic way!!! .... just the way like happens in the korean movie!!! Oh Gosh!!!.... its really touched my heart and i know that my heart gonna melt anytime!! lol.

thousand of thanks to my sweetie - Madeleine. i know she is the one who arranged everything!! love you chick, apreciated all efforts you've made!! Huggies Wuggies for you !!!!

MISUNDERSTANDING~

MISUNDERSTANDING....just one simple word...yet it can tear u apart and break your heart into the smallest tiniest pieces, it can cause wars,and it can break down a friendship that seems to be well and sweet......

How i wish words can explain how i feel.. how i wish i can put everything into words, but there are just some things that is meant to be kept in the heart.

I know myself need more time to overcome it. Again.. forgive and forget is the main things that i need to learn. continue pray for me readers!!

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Suck it up and deal

Caring too much=major disappointment.

So for all you kiddies out there, I suggest you don't care about people that much. Because it hurts like a bitch when they don't care about you, or at least don't put an effort to show you that they care.

I'll just accept it and deal. Suck it up and deal.

friend or best friend??

Dear you,

I couldn't get into sleep at this hour.
Read back the message that you text me.
I still can feel the pain in my heart.
Which i know that i need more time to overcome it.

Some people said :"Everyone hears what you say. Friends listen to what you say. Best friends listen to what you don't say."

Could you please tell me now~
friend or best friend?
perhaps......
perhaps......
perhaps......
we are just friend!!
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On the plus side, I got to talk to ET this evening. I felt bad because he was trying so hard to cheer me up but nothing really worked. There were a few times when he got me to smile... and that felt great. It's comforting really, he has gotten me into a slightly better mood. Appreciated with his efforts, he deserve a hug from me.

Pretty Chicks ~

I'm so happy to meet her back!

Look good?

AM I LOOK GOOD WITH LONG HAIR? Give me some feedback readers? :)

All of sudden... I wish to hav LONG CURLY HAIR!!!!!

Dream never comes true~

I ever dreamed of our fragile friendship can be more stronger one day, i ever dreamed of our friendship can be last forever, i ever dreamed that our kids will be good friends in the future, i ever dreamed that we still go gathering even that we have our own family next time. But dream always just a dream. It will never comes true....

Tired of maintain a friendship

Friendship are just easy to start but hard to maintain. Or may be to say it's tired to maintain. Good friendship are built on mutual respect, an appreciation for spending time together and enjoying common interest. One of my friend wrote a displayed message at his msn. Needless to say, that piqued my curiosity and i called up asked a lot of questions. He answered me that i was think too much and it's actually nothing and just simply wrote something to see my re-action. He is my buddy, my closed friend. I simply want him to share with me the narrative of his life. But his answer just like such a purposeful cut to my heart. Now i really don care what happen to him anymore. I dont want to work up a dossier on him! He never appreciate on my friendship and i really found tired to patient and take care of his feeling anymore. All this time, i've tried my best to done my part as a buddy, as a closed friend! Finally... I gave up and i'm now announce that all concerns end right here!

Qbar friday night ~

Share with y'all the place that i love to chilled-out recently~
They are my coolest friends in Malaysia~

Wil you keep promise?

Sean has promised me that no party at Qbar anymore. Sean! Don make empty promise ya! This is the evidence! Lol.

Someone i treasured~

Met Alfred last 2 weeks at Sheneningan's pub. Alfred, a friend which helped me a lot during my sadness period at Miri.. All of sudden, i miss you guys!

My Mirian friends, i miss Cheery-Berry pub, Balcony pub, Island bar. I miss the old days tat v are together, thank you for brighten me, thank you for left a footprint in my life and thank you for the friendship. You guys deserve a hug from me. Cheers!