I miss you without you realiasing!!

My arms have been wide open this whole time.
I'm tired of being disappointed,
But you seem to let me down all the time. :(

You will never know~
I miss you without you realising!!

thousand of sorry N thanks!!

Dear LMF,
You've made me feel loved.
And for that, I'll never forget you.
I wish I could just be with you.
You have no idea,
I'm so thankful for you,
That you're willing to be there for me.
That you willing showing me your sincere.

But then...
I dont want to be a liar.
I don want to be with you,
I dont want to lean on you,
Because you are not the one,
That i wish to cry on,
That i wish to share my life.

Maybe one day things will work out for us.
But for now..
I'm just happy to be your friend
You'll never have a place in my heart.
Sorry for treated you so cruel.
And thank you for treated me so well.


God may rewards you ... one day.

Choco choco choco..late!!

Yay! So much chocolate in the fridge right now!
CHOCOLATE WEEK for me!!
Thanks for Tshin bought me chocolate from Labuan,
Thanks for my sister bought me chocolate from KL!!
But im still waiting my Mint Chocolate from Singapore ~
Hey.. where is my After 8?

Once again, thanks God for good friends!!!

No turning back!!

Dear you,
You walked out on me,
So... please dont come back,
Let's just face the fact..
There is .... no turning back!

We can still be friends!

best weekend ever!

Hands down,
The best weekend ever.
I am loved.

Now I'm sick with a sore throat.
But who cares.
I'm going to have lemon honey. Heh.
No hazelnut white coffee for me this week.
Whatever.
I am happy!!!

Catch me when i fall~

Ashlee Simpson - Catch Me When I Fall

Is anybody out there
Does anybody see
That when the lights are off something's killing me
I know it seems like people care
Cause they're always around me
But when the day is done and everybody runs

Who will be the one to save me from myself
Who will be the one who's there
And not ashamed to see me crawl
Who's gonna catch me when I fall

When the show is over
And it's empty everywhere
It's hard to face going back alone
So I walk around the city
Anything, anything to clear my head
I've got nowhere to go nowhere but home

Who will be the one to save me from myself
Who will be the one who's there
And not ashamed to see me crawl
Who's gonna catch me when I fall

It may seem I have everything
But everything means nothing
When the ride that you've been on
That you're coming off
Leaves you feeling lost
Is anybody out there
Does anybody see

That sometimes loneliness is just a part of me

focus on living

Lord,
I know You're not out to get me.
They happen for a reason.
Even though they do hurt,
It's not supposed to break my spirit.

I've been feeling broken.
But I know that something will come out of this.
And I continue to believe.
I continue to hope.
I continue to love.
Because I trust in You. Amen.


I've been feeling rather depressed.
Especially this week.

Hell,
It's been one depressing half a year.
But whatever.
I'm over it.

Here's to hoping for the best.
And believing God will pull through,
Every single time.

Lord,
You know my heart's desires.
And I believe in time,
You will give them to me.

Time.
Wait.
Live.

I think I'll just focus on living.

happy birthday~

You know,
Sometimes it hurts to think back,
Because I gave you everything.

But now?
I'm over it.
I'm taking everything back.
My life,
My heart,
Everything.

~Happy Birthday~

i'm okay~

I’m okay….

Thank you for all the heartfelt text messages!!
Really really touched me, about all the concerns…
And thank you kim for calling,
You really made me feel a lot better.
You’re the sweetest!!!

Its been few days since then,
And I am feeling much more better!!
I think it just takes time,
Not only times, I guess I need more rest!!

I am now carrier of cough and sore throat bacteria.
So people beware!!!!
May be because I was depressed,
And bacteria attracted to depressed people?
No one will ever know…

emotional post

I don’t know why
But at this very moment,
I’m sinking into depression.

This post is absolutely emotional,
And that I’ll probably be okay after a day, week, month,
I think I deserve the right to be depressed once in while.

I hate the feelings I have now~
God, can you save me?

another 5 days~

Dear you~
It's hard decision for me,
Guess it's about time that I'm finally moving on,
I don't really care if it's right or wrong.
And in spite of the way I love your touch,
I know it's gonna be better for both of us.
It hurts like hell but I gotta try,
You already know the reason why.
So no matter who's right or wrong,
Think it's finally time I'm moving on.
It's time to give you up .... forever.
It's totally a CLEAR CUT between us!!

We'll see.
Another 5 days to final decision.
If I'm not go for your birthday dinner,
Then just forget me ........... All of me!!!