Mesilau Trip

Pictures taken by Camuel at Mesilao, Kundasang Ranau

I was browsing through my pictures saved in my laptop, and i couldn't help but to blog about this ~ I just wanna said that friendship isn't that easy, to maintain a friendship wasn't a piece of cake.  sleep overs, gaming, eating together, beer time together.. those were the old good days... and pictures proven that we been our friendship~

secret in the dark!!

I really want you.
I really want to be with you.

But I can't.
But we can't.

Will it always be this way?
Do I dare say I love you?

who would you choose?

A friend of mine asked me today: "Who would you rather choose? The guy you love or the guy who loves you?"

I thought it was a good question, so i thought i'd answer it myself.

My friend said that you should pick the guy you love. Well... it makes sense.
After all, "It is better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all." And of course.. it's true.

But.... my answer is different. While my initial answer was also "the guy i love," I changed my mind.... I would pick neither.

Why?

Firstly, I could never pick a guy who loved me but i didn't love back. I'd hate him and I'd hate myself for agreeing to be with him.. I know this because i've been in a situation like this. I felt like the world was crashing down upon me. So, that's out of the question.

Secondly . . . why wouldn't i pick the guy I love?

Because i know what it feels like to like someone who doesn't like you back. Or, in my case, someone who I thought liked me back but ended up with someone else. :(

I believe in the whole, "If you love someone, you'll set them free" I know myself well enough.

If I like someone who doesn't like me back, I don't persist. I'll definitely set him free. Let him do what he wants to do. I'll hide the feelings, put them deep inside my heart until they're so deeply buried I can hardly find them again...

It's better that way.

So, once again, what is my answer? NEITHER. I'm sure i would pick neither.

random post~

There're so many things to say, and i don't even know in which order i should say it. Some are pleasant, and some aren't so pleasant. I'll do the bad news first i guess, so that i can at least end at a happy note.

Here we go~
Two of my colleagues are having a quarrel, and that just makes me feel bad. I wish i could do something about it, but then, i'm not in a position to do anything. But what i can do is offer a listening ear and a shoulder to cry on. Advice is something i don't dispense though for obvious and practical reasons, and i try to keep my opinions inside as well because this is something the two parties involved should handle themselves.

Alright, on to the happy things. Lately, my buddies and i have been having a blast! We've been eating out in random places like KFC.... wow... the place is wonderful!! We've just been hanging out and generally having a good time. I'm really learning to ♥ my buddies!

Oh, here is another bit of happy news . . . I read the newspaper today and came across a book called The Revenge Encyclopedia, which gives tips on how to get back at your enemies. It is, just looking at the title, a rather slapstick book, but very intelligently done!! However, just as it was written with intelligence, it must also be read with intelligence.

Well.. that's all for today ~ good night readers~ *hugz*

growing up or growing old?

I feel that perhaps i am growing more and more introverted. I have a party to go to later because it's a friend's birthday, and I both feel like going and don't feel like going. *sigh*

I may be growing more and more paradoxical as I grow older.

Jessie's Girl~

Right now, I am totally brainwashed by the song Jessie's Girl by Rick Springfield.


So, the real lines of the song go like this:

Jessie is a friend, yeah,
I know he's been a good friend of mine
But lately something's changed;
that ain't hard to define
Jessie's got himself a girl
and I want to make her mine

And she's watching him with those eyes
And she's lovin' him with that body, I just know it
Yeah and he's holding her in his arms late, late at night

You know, I wish that I had Jessie's girl,
I wish that I had Jessie's girl
Where can I find a woman like that?

This farce is dedicated to the man who I currently pine for.... God help me.
"I wanna tell him that I like him but the point is probably moot."


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