my resolutions for year 2007 ~

I have to convince myself that 2007 is going to be a year without him, that it's truly over. It's almost as if the new calendar is proof that that period of time has ended, and something new is beginning. What kind of new beginning? I wish I knew.

I hardly ever make resolutions, but I think in this coming year, it's important that I make some, i have to do what i can to make 2007 become a good year. Moreover, it is my hope to capture myself at my best.

My 2007 resolutions~
- Live a more active life.
- Live a more healthier life.
- Exceed some expectations.
- Quit being such a slacker.
- Broaden my horizons.
- Be impeccable with my word.
- Write something every day.
- Only make choices that make myself happy.

All my chicks and dudes.... Goodbye to 2006, the 'dark days' of 2006 are over soon ~
HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!.... I hope y'all had an excellent night, and are already on your way to finishing up your resolutions. :-)

Hello... verbal karma can?

I need to hear a comforting voice.
caumei, donna, pheiling, jojo, tshin, charles, ah fii, ....
I miss you guys.
All of a sudden,
I remember stuff about the past.
And somehow I wish I could go back in time and relive those moments.
Not in a different way,
But just to live them again.

I think bitching about something will make me feel better again.
You know what annoys me?
I'm sick of how fake people can be.
How some friendships are just so hard to keep going.
Whatever you do just seems to drive the friendship into the ground.
Seriously.
I'm sick of people who think it's okay to make uncalled for remarks at you,
But when you do the same to them, they get pissed off.
Hello, verbal karma can?
I'm sick of friendships where they'll get upset if you exclude them,
But when things happened the same to others, they're not even realize it.
Why they never trying to put themselves in others' shoes??
Dont they know that 'give' and 'take' should exist in the real friendship?

S*cks!!!!!!!!!
Yeah, if you think i'm talking about you,
I probably am.


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christmas is nearing to an end~

christmas is nearing to an end... to tell y'all the truth, i haven't been in a very christmasy mood till now. kk city damn quiet and i kinda disappointed with that. I didn't celebrate my christmas in kk for the past 4 years, then i was expected something special..... :-( well, i went to my aunt's house for christmas eve dinner. kinda surprised that one of my friend was there n joined our dinner. i went to church for christmas eve worship with my aunt, uncle and my friend, it's really amazing! yea.. God is awesome, the prayer and songs really make my tears run out from my eyes.. it's touching honestly, this the the only greatest time for me last night!! :-D

so many things happened but i cant blog about every single thing for this weekend.. i was attended to Megan's wedding dinner on saturday night, it was amazing!! i really touching with their love story, that was the greatest part of the dinner i bet. Megan looked beautiful.. after the wedding dinner, i hang out with my piagroup friends. we had a great time and its really a craziness big party.. almost everyone of us a bit high and enjoyed the parties. lol. guess? i only slept at 5 in the morning.. *laugh*

eventhough saturday night was fun, but i only can categorized it as a normal piagroup clubbing time, its not a christmas celebration anyway.. how sad that i realized it.. some of my thoughts are really not convenient to share it here.. lol...if not i will be killed by my friends. so, i wil only share out with you guys in our msn or skype chat session. do remind me then..

doug, thanks for your morning call..!!!!! it's 5am in my country, and you dare to wake me up in this hour!!! if you are not BASTARD, i dont know who else can be.. lol. damn you!!! don't ever call me in this special hour next time..!!!!!! i will shoot you for sure!!!! lol... yea.. i know it's time for a snowball fight.. and im missing y'all here. take care everyone... i love y'all..

let's say goodbye to 2006 Christmas and do have a great time for the last 6 days in 2006!!!!!!


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a christmas message to y'all ~

I hope y'all have a wonderful and blessed christmas with family and friends surrounding you. My best wishes go out to all of you!!!! wish y'all can find peace and fun with, and one that you're looking forward to!

Even though im missing my family and friends as i can't be with some of you at this time of year, know that in my heart, im with y'all every moment!!

it's good to know how to say 'Merry Christmas' in other language..
i got all these from a meaningful website..

French: Joyeux Noel!
Italian: Buone Natale!
Norwegian: Gledelig Jul!
Finnish: Hyvaa Joulua!
Spanish: Feliz Navidad!
German: Froehliche
Weihnachten!
Japanese: Merii Kurisumasau!
Dutch: Vrolijk Kerstfeest!
Greek: Kala Christouyenna!
Ukrainian: Srozhdestvom Kristovym


Merry Christmas with joy,
from Connie


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Kopicat Cafe

I went out with jackson just now... kinda surprised this dude called me in sudden. he was my ex-classmates in high school, someone i knew since i was 13 years old, someone chased after my best friend since 13 years old, someone kinda famous in basketball during my school time, someone that always called me in the midnight, someone that always caused me get scolded by my parents, someone that ONLY remember me when the time he is unhappy, someone that never share his happiness time with me, someone that knew me for 15 years and never remember my birthday, someone stayed in the same park with me so called 'neighbour' in kk now. lol.

yea.. he is the one i ever shared with you, the one that stayed opposite your house in kk.. caumei.. get it? lol..

we went to a nice place - Kopicat Cafe. Man i love that place, very peaceful, quiet, classy yet modern, got nice music, nice food, nice drinks and the environment is just soooo cooL, nice decoration, nice colour scheme. They use primarily pale yellow and pale green. The ambience is just there. and yea.. we had a great time there. it's always good can gathered with 'old' friend... ;p

check out some pics that i took ~ remind me to bring y'all visit there if there is a chance ya..

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birth month characteristic~

yea.. grabbed the below article from a website, n share with y'all.... let me know whether its accurate? :-)



JANUARY
* Ambitious and serious
* Loves to teach and be taught
* Always looking at people's flaws and weaknesses
* Likes to criticise
* Hardworking and productive
* Smart, neat and organised
* Sensitive and has deep thoughts
* Knows how to make others happy
* Quiet unless excited or tensed
* Rather reserved
* Highly attentive
* Resistant to illnesses but prone to colds
* Romantic but has difficulties expressing love
* Loves children
* Homely person
* Loyal
* Needs to improve social abilities
* Easily jealous



FEBRUARY
* Abstract thoughts
* Loves reality and abstract
* Intelligent and clever
* Changing personality
* Temperamental
* Quiet, shy and humble
* Low self esteem
* Honest and loyal
* Determined to reach goals
* Loves freedom
* Rebellious when restricted
* Loves aggressiveness
* Too sensitive and easily hurt
* Showing anger easily
* Dislike unnecessary things
* Loves making friends but rarely shows it
* Daring and stubborn
* Ambitious
* Realising dreams and hopes
* Sharp
* Loves entertainment and leisure
* Romantic on the inside not outside
* Supersticious and ludicrous
* Spendthrift
* Learns to show emotions


MARCH
* Attractive personality
* Affectionate
* Shy and reserved
* Secretive
* Naturally honest, generous and sympathetic
* Loves peace and serenity
* Sensitive to others
* Loves to serve others
* Not easily angered
* Trustworthy
* Appreciative and returns kindness
* Observant and assess others
* Revengeful
* Loves to dream and fantasize
* Loves travelling
* Loves attention
* Hasty decisions in choosing partners
* Loves home decors
* Musically talented
* Loves special things
* Moody



APRIL
* Active and dynamic
* Decisive and hasteful but tends to regret
* Attractive and affectionate to oneself
* Strong mentality
* Loves attention
* Diplomatic
* Consoling
* Friendly and solves people's problems
* Brave and fearless
* Adventurous
* Loving and caring
* Suave and generous
* Emotional
* Revengeful
* Agressive
* Hasty
* Good memory
* Moving
* Motivate oneself and the others
* Sickness usually of the head and chest
* Easily get too jealous



MAY
* Stubborn and hard-hearted
* Strong-willed and highly motivated
* Sharp thoughts
* Easily angered
* Attracts others and loves attention
* Deep feelings
* Beautiful physically and mentally
* Firm standpoint
* Easily influenced
* Needs no motivation
* Easily consoled
* Systematic (left brain)
* Loves to dream
* Strong clairvoyance
* Understanding
* Sickness usually in the ear and neck
* Good imagination
* Good debating skills
* Good physical
* Weak breathing
* Loves literature and the arts
* Loves travelling
* Dislike being at home
* Restless
* Hardworking
* High spirited
* Spendthrift



JUNE
* Thinks far with vision
* Easily influenced by kindness
* Polite and soft-spoken
* Having lots of ideas
* Sensitive
* Active mind
* Hesitating
* Tends to delay
* Choosy and always wants the best
* Temperamental
* Funny and humorous
* Loves to joke
* Good debating skills
* Talkative
* Daydreamer
* Friendly
* Knows how to make friends
* Abiding
* Able to show character
* Easily hurt
* Prone to getting colds
* Loves to dress up
* Easily bored
* Fussy
* Seldom show emotions
* Takes time to recover when hurt
* Brand conscious
* Executive
* Stubborn
* Those who loves me are enemies
* Those who hates me are friends



JULY
* Fun to be with
* Secretive
* Difficult to fathom and to be understood
* Quiet unless excited or tensed
* Takes pride in oneself
* Has reputation
* Easily consoled
* Honest
* Concern about people's feelings
* Tactful
* Friendly
* Approachable
* Very emotional
* Tempramental and unpredictable
* Moody and easily hurt
* Witty and sarky
* Sentimental
* Not revengeful
* Forgiving but never forgets
* Dislike nonsensical and unnecessary things
* Guides others physically and mentally
* Sensitive and forms impressions carefully
* Caring and loving
* Strong sense of sympathy
* Wary and sharp
* Judge people through observations
* Hardworking
* No difficulties in studying
* Always broods about the past and the old friends
* Easily jealous
* Waits for friends
* Never looks for friends
* Not aggressive unless provoked
* Prone to having stomach and dieting problems
* Loves to be loved
* Easily hurt
* Overly concerned
* Puts in effort in work



AUGUST
* Loves to joke
* Attractive
* Suave and caring
* Brave and fearless
* Firm and has leadership qualities
* Knows how to console others
* Too generous and egoistic
* Taked high pride of oneself
* Thirsty for praises
* Extraodinary spirit
* Easily angered
* Angry when provoked
* Easily jealous
* Observant
* Careful and cautious
* Thinks quickly
* Independent thoughts
* Loves to lead and to be led
* Loves to dream
* Talented in the arts, music and defence
* Sensitive but not petty
* Poor resistance against illnesses
* Learns to relax
* Hasty and rushy
* Romantic
* Loving and caring
* Loves to make friends



SEPTEMBER
* Suave and compromising
* Careful, cautious and organised
* Likes to point out people's mistakes
* Likes to criticize
* Quiet but able to talk well
* Calm and cool
* Kind and sympathetic
* Concerned and detailed
* Trustworthy, loyal and honest
* Does work well
* Sensitive
* Thinking
* Good memory
* Clever and knowledgeable
* Loves to look for information
* Must control oneself when criticising
* Able to motivate oneself
* Understanding
* Secretive
* Loves sports, leisure and travelling
* Hardly shows emotions
* Tends to bottle up feelings
* Choosy especially in relationships
* Loves wide things
* Systematic



OCTOBER
* Loves to chat
* Loves those who loves him
* Loves to takes things at the centre
* Attractive and suave
* Inner and physical beauty
* Does not lie or pretend
* Sympathetic
* Treats friends importantly
* Always making friends
* Easily hurt but recovers easily
* Bad tempered
* Selfish
* Seldom helps unless asked
* Daydreamer
* Very opinionated
* Does not care of what others think
* Emotional
* Decisive
* Strong clairvoyance
* Loves to travel, the arts and literature
* Soft-spoken, loving and caring
* Romantic
* Touchy and easily jealous
* Concerned
* Loves outdoors
* Just and fair
* Spendthrift and easily influenced
* Easily lose confidence



NOVEMBER
* Has a lot of ideas
* Difficult to fathom
* Thinks forward
* Unique and brilliant
* Extraodinary ideas
* Sharp thinking
* Fine and strong clairvoyance
* Can become good doctors
* Careful and cautious
* Dynamic in personality
* Secretive
* Inquisitive
* Knows how to dig secrets
* Always thinking
* Less talkative but amiable
* Brave and generous
* Patient
* Stubborn and hard-hearted
* If there is a will, there is a way
* Determined
* Never give up
* Hardly become angry unless provoked
* Loves to be alone
* Thinks differently from others
* Sharp-minded
* Motivates oneself
* Does not appreciates praises
* High-spirited
* Well-built and tough
* Deep love and emotions
* Romantic
* Uncertain in relationships
* Homely
* Hardworking
* High abilities
* Trustworhty
* Honest and keeps secrets
* Not able to control emotions
* Unpredictable



DECEMBER
* Loyal and generous
* Patriotic
* Active in games and interactions
* Impatient and hasty
* Ambitious
* Influential in organisations
* Fun to be with
* Loves to socialise
* Loves praises
* Loves attention
* Loves to be loved
* Honest and trustworthy
* Not pretending
* Short tempered
* Changing personality
* Not egoistic
* Takes high pride in oneself
* Hates restrictions
* Loves to joke
* Good sense of humor
* Logical


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sensitivity and stupidity~

Extremely irritable right now.
Everything seems to annoy me.
God, save me.

There should be a cure for sensitivity and stupidity.
Sensitive and stupid people should be send to an island far, far away.
I can deal with sensitive and stupid separately.
But if put them together, i'll be killed.

I feel like I'm doing something wrong.
But what?
I just don't know.
God, please help me.
I'm so lost.


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what happened?

when something happens...it just happens. it happened in such a short time and if it goes wrong. all u can say is...WHAT HAPPENED?!

there are things that i wish didnt happen. christmas is drawing near. i HOPE the mood will get better. i do not expect life to be superb all the time. and i'm glad life isnt always good.

have u ever been in a state where u just dont have any more tears to let out?! i have.

there are just so many things in my head and i dont even know what i should say and what i should not. i shall stop here before i say something i shouldnt.

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i forgive you ~

Went to church yesterday.

It was something totally unexpected.

Totally.

But after the woship,

I feel like there is some forgiving I have to do.

I don't know specifically who I'm supposed to forgive..

But I feel that it has to be done.

So..

Whatever you've done,

Whatever you've said,

Though I've never said it before,

And though it may not even matter now anymore,

Just to make things right:

I forgive you.

And I'm sorry for waiting so long to say it.

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thanks 'anGeL' ~

guess i haven't been around for anybody lately...my apologies ~

after a long break, i think im starting to feel better after i shared out my doubts with someone who called 'angel' in my life.

Angel - thanks for giving me support and some insight on an issue that has been weighing heavily on my mind for the past week, i think i'd overcome it finally. *hugz*

to all my dearest friends who has viewed this blog, thanks so much for the caring, sorry that im not purposely to ignore y'all but then ... i just need time to overcome it. *hugz* im adjusting my mood back to normal and back up to speed with everyone, as well as put some 'colours' and drop few 'words' in my blog here. see ya...

~ breathe again ~

yeah.. uploaded a wonderful song which sang by Juwita for sharing with my dearest friends. ^__^ have a great weekend ya..


http://localhostr.com/files/f7899215e52c161b409f.mp3

Breathe Again - Juwita Suwito


Have you wondered how it feels when it's all over?
Wondered how it feels when you just have to start anew?
Never knowing where you're going
When you face a brand new day
It used to be that way
Now I just close my eyes and say

I just want to breathe again, learn to face the joy and pain
Discover how to laugh a little, cry a little, live a little more
I just wanna face the day, forget about the woes of yesterday
Maybe if I hope a little, try a little more
I’ll breathe again

Starting out again is never easy
Disappointments come and go but life still moves on
With a bit of luck
It’s a brand new start
That might just work my way
No need to walk away
Don't want to live on life's replay

I just want to breathe again, learn to face the joy and pain
Discover how to laugh a little, cry a little, live a little more
I just wanna face the day, forget about the woes of yesterday
Maybe if I hope a little, try a little more
I’ll breathe again

Things will work out fine
If you can find the courage to look past the night
To see the break of dawn

I just want to breathe again, learn to face the joy and pain
Discover how to laugh a little, cry a little, live a little more
I just wanna face the day, forget about the woes of yesterday
Maybe if I hope a little, try a little more
I'll breathe again

I'll breathe again...

forget it all and just live!!!

So nothing has seem to changed, i'm still just as lonely here. again, it was happened again.. i've pushed everyone away, i've been having my rapid mood swings a lot again i've been thinking alot of thoughts which i know i shouldn't be. I feel like i've been accused for some reasons. i feel like i should't be around others, i somehow feel not good enough i guess to deserve human interaction and to be honest i'm really afraid of accusation from others, i feel bad that my heart filled with guilt. Last night after my bath i was looking in the mirror but strange that i noticed myself unable to smile happily to myself.. That's not like me at all. Y'all ever having this kind of feelings before?

All this time, i've been submerging myself in all sort of things. i think it's time to come up to breathe.. i'm just going to forget about all those silly and stupid accusation, forget everything that's been bugging me, forget it all and just live. yea.. JUST LIVE...

another 30 days to year 2007!!!!! enjoy the last 30 days of year 2006, connie.. :P


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i just have to let it be ~

When I find myself in times of trouble
Mother Mary comes to me
Speaking words of wisdom, let it be.
And in my hour of darkness
She is standing right in front of me
Speaking words of wisdom, let it be.
Let it be, let it be.
Let it be, let it be.
Whisper words of wisdom, let it be.

And when all the broken hearted people
Living in the world agree,
There will be an answer, let it be.
For though they may be parted there is
Still a chance that they will see
There will be an answer, let it be.
Let it be, let it be.
Let it be, let it be.
There will be an answer, let it be.

Let it be, let it be.
Let it be, let it be.
Whisper words of wisdom, let it be.
Let it be, let it be.
Let it be, let it be.
Whisper words of wisdom, let it be.
And when the night is cloudy,
There is still a light that shines on me.
Shine on 'til tomorrow, let it be.
I wake up to the sound of music
Mother Mary comes to me
Speaking words of wisdom, let it be.
Let it be, let it be.
Let it be, yeah let it be.

There will be an answer, let it be.
Let it be, let it be.
Let it be, yeah let it be.
Whisper words of wisdom, let it be.
Let it be, let it be.
Let it be, let it be.
And there will be no sadness, let it be


~*The Beatles*~

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