:-( *sigh*

argh... my throat feels so much worse, its started getting really bad since this early morning, i only slept at 4am but woke up at 7am, the sleep was restless though, kept waking up every so often, damn it all... i'm afraid of lost my voice, as my parents will be coming here this wednesday to attend my cousin wedding dinner, wish that i'll be fine within the next 2 days... if not, i will be hiding myself away from them, they must be scold me for not taking care of myself :-( besides, it's suffering about not having any voice, my friends must be laugh if they heard that i lose my voice.. *eye roll* bet they will feel a little relieve from my annoying... ;p

ok, leaving now.... i need to continue my sleep... wish that i could feel better after wake up then...


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come on ~ click on it!!!

hi friends... found a really interesting link!! it's kinda accurate th things it says.. out of the mathematical calculations or something,,, it's really cool...!!! hahaha.... there mght be things u wanna hear, if not... hmmm.. it's worth a try.. so come on.. just click on it and answer the questions..

http://www.crush007.com/v2/predict/1162087790kan

anyone ever have this kind of sense?

Have you ever been in an uncomfortable situation - not like an awkward conversation - where a person makes you feel so uneasy that you become stressed for no reason? What I mean is, can you realize just how much you 'dislike' that person right away?

It isn't like you can hear their thoughts, nothing like that, just a great feeling inside your own soul. It is their spirit you don't agree with on a personal or general level and you can't decide at all what is you know about them or feel about them, you just know that it makes you very uncomfortable.

Yeah, there is someone like that besides me. They make me so uncomfortable as mentioned above in my first paragraph and i dont know what to do ~


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i'm just so tired ~

when i wish i'm on a peaceful beach... full of wind and breeze... white sandy beach... away from this world ....

when i wish i can stop time...

when i want someone to feel how i feel, see what i see, think what i think, hear what i hear, taste what i taste, sense what i sense...

when i wish there's someone who is there to understand me so much that i dont need to say what i'm thinking about .....

when time like this ~ i'm just so tired ~
days been hectic.. and very pressurizing... and getting pissed off easily... :-(


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I WAS TAGGED!!

get the below test from mel's blog, it's fun.. ~ here we go ~


Name 20 people you can think of at the top of your head.

1: pheiling
2: wei
3: tshin
4: su nye
5: dovn
6: caumei
7: charl
8: henry
9: fion
10: sean
11: chwan
12: elaiza
13: linda
14: kim
15: doug
16: farah
17: jenn
18: mel
19: sahar
20: rita


How did you meet 14?
kim? met him the 1st day i arrived glasgow, he came and knock ... knock... the door bell... (kim, still remember?)

What would you do if you have never met 1?
my life would be so so much less sweet . . . . ( not quite answering the question because I don’t know what I would do. Hahaha. )

What would you do if 20 and 9 dated?
that’s so wrong…. Terribly wrong… i believe that fion perfer guy more than gals... !!!! rita.. stop your imagination!!!!

Did you ever like 19?
yeah.... she’s my chick, how to be frens if I don’t like her BUT.... not that kind ya... i prefer guy more than chick as well...lol.

Would 6 and 17 make a good couple?
HEY!!! NO WAY… caumei and jenn... please don!!!

Describe 3.
He is my best best friend and my ex-classmates in high school, a friend that pampered me a lot.. (i must admit) and keep in touch till now.... i can cry as loud as i want in front of him, a shoulder to lean on, a good listener and advicer. he dare to flight back from KL because of i cried in the phone when he called me!! i miss him... and cherished his friendhsip.....

Do you think 8 is attractive?
he’s quite good looking just that not available anymore… his attitude attracts people… (and i am one of the people... lol), i like his words : ~ no matter what, girl friend is for pamper, girl friend is my queen!!) he got high marks from me because of this word!!!! ;-P

Tell me something about 7:
he is my head in pia group!! lol. same age with me... but i older than him 14 days!!! he is still single, his is outgoing, friendly, talkative, funny, he can drink and dance very well.... and emhemmmm..... he quite stylo.. conclusion.. he is a great friend of mine..

Do you know any of 12's family?
yea.... i knew all of them.... unless her father!! :-P

What's 18's favourite?
can disclose here? wine & ... ? chick, am i right? i wil be kill by her...

What would you do if 10 confesses that he/she likes you?
i am sure of course he likes me ...... as a friend!! if not, how can we to be friend?

Who is 9 going out with?
of course with her friends, those who are admirer her? :-P

How old is 16 now?
that’s private and confidential.. haha

When was the last time you talked to 13?
2 - 3 weeks ago... she is busy with her own stuff recently...

Who's 2's favourite band/singer?
hmm… no specific band/singer I guess. . . . . . . (haha... actually i really dont know)

Would you date 4?
why not... date her out to have a drink... (but seldom honestly... because i kept her in my heart, not meet everyday) *hugs*

Would you date 7?
nope... i wont date him out 1-1... hahaha.. preferably hang out in a group..

Is 15 single?
he told me he still..... but how do i know? he is so far away ?

What's 10's last name?
LAI

Would you ever be in a serious relationship with 11?
what on earth…….NEVER...........

Which school does 3 go to?
my school and he sits just right next to me… long long time ago...

Where does 6 live?
last time she is my neighbour, lives in Taman Ridgeview, but recently she worked in KL.

What's your favourite thing about 5?
sincere….



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what connie really want?

wanna know how connie feels now?
wanna know what connie really wants?

wants to go to the island.
lie down on the sand.
swimming and snorkelling in the sea.
feeel the breeze and listen to the wave crash.


anybody interested to give me that??



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some pictures of my QQ

I want to cry right now. how can my QQ be the same one that i watched leave me forever on last night...?

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Tears me away from these thoughts. Tears me away from these memories. I guess last night it didn't tear me away soon enough, because I started remembering QQ again...........

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pictures were taken when QQ jsut 3 weeks old, when i bought him at

KDCA, Penampang on 30th May 2006

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pictures were taken when i noticed QQ was sick yesterday morning around 10.30am.

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pictures were taken when QQ in vet's clinic, he was nearly die.. :-( he not even have energy at that time..

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picture was taken when i bring him back from vet, i feed him some medicine,

his body very weak at that time, and i knew that he wil leave me anytime,

but i still hoping that 'miracle' wil happen to QQ.

My QQ leave me finally, he was struggling so much and was breathing so hard. He’d laid there and died under my petting, his eyes didn’t close, even i tried to close it.. but failed..

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how can i feeling better?

everytime when i came home from outside, i would called his name and feed him, take him out from his cage and hug him, i love him very much, i feed and care him day in and day out, i bathed him every once in a week, bring him to the playground to let him free, he is the only one who'd cuddle with me when i was lonely, cold, or scared, unfortunately, i need to change all these habit from now on, because he was leave me forever.. yeah .... forever.... :'(

he is my pet, my sole companion, even he just a rabbit named QQ, but i treated him as my 'good boy', sometimes i think of him as a part of my family member. a pet that can accompany me when i'm alone, a pet that can play with me and just be my side when i dont feel like talking. i talked with him when no one else listen to me, i shared my secret with him and i know that he wont tell a soul, for me, he is someone over there and never judged, he is someone always there and never leave me if i cry and would listen even though he probably not understand my words. i knew that he cant stay with me forever, like all living things, wil surely die at some point. i understand, just that i keep wondering is that my fault to caused him died?

QQ died and it caused me to remember other painful losses and upsetting events in my past, may be for a while, i may not feel anything at all. but right now, at this moment, i dont know what's wrong with me, i feel like crying non stop, nobody can understand my feeling now, and i pissed that people telling me that he was just a rabbit, just a pet and i should get over him, hurtful comments 'dont be so upset, it was only a rabbit, a pet!! and ' you can get another one to replace', their thought added me to the grief and feeling of isolation and loneliness, because no one understand how much i love him...

i knew that a new rabbit can't replace my QQ, i'd never have another rabbit just like QQ. i have used to have QQ when he was 3 weeks old, and it was difficult for me to say good-bye and let him go, i extremely sad when he was died and i don't think it's silly, i love him, may be i really need time to let him go and adopt a new one... but not at this moment, i'm sure.


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He's gone..

As of 8.25pm, QQ's soul was no longer part of the living collective on this earth. You guys probably think it's dumb, but i really hurt and upset about this. I know i look like an idiot now....... ;-( i think i need a hug from y'all....

i don't know what else to say. Maybe i'll have more to update about it later....


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a male voice whispered in a dark ....

Wwwait...... I had to share just one more weird incident was happened just now. Promise. this should be the last before i go to my bed..

just hung up with my friend over the phone, we talked and laughed again about the weird incident we'd experienced earlier on inside the car on my way back. one of my friend was shared with me and another friend about the real ghost stories was happened to his friend, 3 of us was inside the car with super cold air-condition, i was sit at the back alone, my heart start panic a bit when i realised that there is really dark and the environment a bit weird, especially my friend was reduced the volume of the music to concentrate listen to the stories, when my friend was described about the ghost 'look' and in a suddened, we heard a male voice whispered in the dark with a super good timing...... oh gosh.... i was shocked and shouted without any further thought .... aaaarhhhhhh....... my another 2 friends was shouted as well followed after my shouted... but guess what?............ ??????????????? f* stupid...!! it's just a phone message tone!!!! it's a kind of freaky and creepy... LoL.... it's kinda fun when i think back... damn silly...

it's proven that we shouldn't talk about 'sensitive' topic especially in night time and the most important is... DONT EVER use voice ringtone for incoming calls or message esp at night... it's really weird!!!!

well my friends, that's all for tonight, i gonna go to bed now ~ good night *hugz*



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my confession??

my weekend was fun but it wasn't all good. i'd went out last night with my buddies to shenni, had intention of getting very drunk earlier, i was told myself must be handle myself very well if i really drunk before my drink, i remind myself tat i shouldn't do or say anything that embarrassing to myself or anyone else. but unfortunately, i was totally out of control to myself at last, my ex-colleagues was extremely worried about me and called my sister to send me home.

this morinng, i've been thinking about myself a lot, especially i tried my best to recall back what had happened last night, look at my mistakes, analyze my behaviour and weakness, i can't express how bad I feel about how I've been behaving last night. I don't know how to make up for it, or to apologize. I can correct my actions in the future but how can I make up for the past? i was depressed yesterday evening and i know that i shouldn't take any alcohol last night as i can roughly predict i might lose control and get drunk badly :-( certainly if i didn't think so much i could relax and enjoy things, i have more fun and things would certainly be a lot more confortable. Sometimes, i don't know what will make the situation better, i don't know what i need... or may be i feel stuck.

sometimes i am thinking what is the point of get drunk? peoples get drunk because they really like to drink? because they enjoy the feeling of drunk? because of they are lonely, sad, depressed? because of social event or look cool? surprisingly my brother's do sms me this early morning, he knew from his friends that i was get stoned last night. ~ ~ i'm saying when you go out and drink, go ahead and i never stop you, but don't drink beyond what your body can take ~ ~ this is his sms to me, he always treated me the best and understand my mind, but his sms makes me felt bad and ashamed *shoot me now* ;-( he chosen to believe me and respect my lifestyle, he always shown his care for me, makes me know that no matter what happen to me, he is not far away from me, he always there to lead me up.. *hug* yea.. i love him.. ;-) Other then all this, there's really nothing else worth mentioning.

but the conclusion today is..... i must.... control my behaviour after drunk!!! and reduce my drink in the future. *promise*


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hi there....

guess i haven't been around for anybody lately...my apologies ~

wow blogger...it's been a while. i've been busy lately..i guess? so yea, there's alot of shit goin on right now ;-( yea... i'm really busy this few days.. so... i just drop by to say hi.. to my friends... will update more soon ya.. *smile*



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gonna ZZzzzzzz now...

hey... it's 4.15am now. and i haven't sleep yet. i have talked over the phone with one of my friend more than 3 hours... bet i could have a nice dream later. so yeah... i gonna ZZzzzzzzz now.. ;-) good night to all of my dearest friends... *hugzz*

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~ 退後 ~

recently, i'd addicted to this song... it's very nice. share with y'all ~

do click here to listen: http://s2.7t7t.com/pycs/Z/2006958186191/81913205.Wma


名: 退後 歌手: 周傑倫

天空灰的像哭过
离开你以后
并没有更自由
酸酸的空气
守住我们的距离
一幕醉心的结局
像呼吸般无法停息

抽屉泛黃的日记
找到了回忆
那笑容是傻气
你我的过去
被深深真的忘记
缺氧过后的爱情
存心的眼淚是多余

我知道你我都没有错
只是忘了怎么退后
信誓旦旦给的承诺
全被时间扑了空
我知道我们都没有错
只是放手比较好过
最美的爱情回忆里带去

天空灰的像哭过
离开你以后
并没有更自由
酸酸的空气
守住我们的距离
一幕醉心的结局
像呼吸般无法停息

抽屉泛黃的日记
找到了回忆
那笑容是傻气
你我的过去
被深深真的忘记
缺氧过后的爱情
存心的眼淚是多余

我知道你我都没有错
是忘了怎么退后
信誓旦旦给的承诺
全被时间扑了空
我知道我們都没有错
只是放手会比较好过
最美的爱情会一定带去

我知道我们都没有错
只是放手会比较好过
最美的爱情回忆里带去(待续)
(相信你我还会有开始
只因我们都没有错)




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what's wrong?

i dont know what's wrong with me lately, one minute i'm very happy, the next minute i feel like crying, if put my mood on a graph, it prolly would be like this __/\/\/\/ LOL. it's either i'm getting nearer to insanity, or my menses are coming soon ...........


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chinese quotes ~

i received an e-mail from my friend, which it's quite meaningful. share with y'all ~

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all turned out well?

i have learnt something very valuable..it means a lot to me. it was also a test of friendship. life hasn't been easy for me for the last two days, it was a very tough time for me. very drained emotionally. was attacked by a lot of things at once. but for me, if i let it out in my very special way, i'll be fine. i didnt sleep well during last two days as i'd lots of things on my mind. i prayed to God that he will guide me and teach me how to deal with all this problems in life. it is very true that he never let us face trials n tribulations that we cannot handle and i'm thankful for those who spoke into my life, it made me realise many things. val, thanks for accompanied me when i was deeply down (even that i knew you'd drunk, u might not recall it! lol.), anyway, gal, a big hug for you..

sometimes in life, it's best to not say too much in order not to hurt other ppl's feelings. u might think it's out of good intention but think again... think of what effect will it bring. i have made the same mistake before. and now i know how those who is involved feels. who can stand my personality are those who are actually long lasting friends. yeah, i dont have a sweet and nice personality. because that is the real of me! *cooL* when there are bad attitudes that need to be changed, i try my best to work on it. but besides that, i am an out-spoken person. those who knows me really well would know that! i am thankful and grateful to those who are still my friends eventhough there are times where i hurt their feelings unintentionally. ;-(

in life, there will be many misunderstandings between us and others. it's the action that we take after we find out about something that really counts. it is true when we are misunderstood, it hurts badly. it will cut deep like a knife cutting through but nothing is permanent. *thanks God*

i got certain problems solved yesterday evening. it's goot that it all turned out well. i'm glad i didnt depend on my own strength. but i know more things will come my way in the future and i gonna be tough. anyway, God is ALWAYS there for me. i shall not be afraid. *smile*

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Question: do you think that the world will be so dull without good friends that can make u cry and laugh...eventhough sometimes when you're going through a hard time?

为什么人生气时说话是用喊的?

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Quotes~

well i'm really not in a mood to write anything, so i'm not gonna say much right now. i found some quotes that i wish to share with y'all. this quotes aren't suppose to relate to anyone or anything. they are just quotes that i liked. ^_^


a REAL friend...

1. A REAL Friend would NEVER ditch You, because your what makes everything fun.
2. A REAL Friend is honest with how they feel about ANYTHING && EVERYTHING.
3. A REAL Friend doesnt just STOP talking to You, they dont make you feel like your not even worth explaining things too.
4. A REAL Friend DOESNT discard and replace you w/ someone NEW.
5. A REAL Friend LOVES you for who you ARE, not for who they WANT you to be.
6. A REAL Friend ALWAYS knows when something is REALLY wrong even if your trying your BEST to hide it w/ a smile.
7. A REAL friend WALKS in when the rest of the world walks OUT.
8. A REAL friend knows WHEN to say sorry when they have DONE something to hurt you.
9. A REAL friend KNOWS your weaknesses and DOESNT use them against you in a fight.
10. A REAL friend RESPECTS you as a person && not only respects you but also your HEART and how easily it can break.
11. A REAL friend WOULD be there when you need them, NO MATTER WHAT!!
12. A REAL friend knows HOW to forgive and forget because life w/o you in it just DOESNT make sense.
13. A REAL friend is someone you LOVE like a sister/brother and would do ANYTHING in the world for.



Anyone can give up, it's the easiest thing in the world to do,
but to hold it together, when everyone else is expecting you to fall apart,...
that is TRUE STRENGTH ...


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Lousy Night

I'd the worst night sleep last night.

S*CKs.... i think only this word can describe everything. I get to freaked out and nobody else can understand how i'm feeling when it happens. ;-(

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That's What Friends Are For

yeah.. i am listening to this song now, too bad that i'm unable to upload the audio song and share with y'all in blogger here~ i'm damnly miss all of you now.. :-P *hugz*

That's What Friends Are For by Dionne Warwick and Friends

And I never thought I'd feel this way
And as far as I'm concerned
I'm glad I got the chance to say
That I do believe I love you
And if I should ever go away
Well, then close your eyes and try
To feel the way we do today
And then if you can remember...

Keep smilin', keep shinin'
Knowin' you can always count on me, for sure
That's what friends are for
For good times and bad times
I'll be on your side forever more
That's what friends are for

Well, you came and opened me,
And now there's so much more I see
And so, by the way, I thank you
Oh and then, for the times when we're apart
Well, then close your eyes and love
With the words that's comin' from my heart
And then if you can remember, ...

Oh, keep smilin', keep shinin'
Knowin' you can always count on me, for sure
That's what friends are for
In good times, in bad times
I'll be on your side forever more
That's what friends are for

Oh, keep smilin', keep shinin'
Knowin' you can always count on me, for sure
That's what friends are for
For good times and bad times
I'll be on your side forever more
That's what friends are for

Keep smilin', keep shinin'
Knowin' you can always count on me, oh for sure
Cause I tell ya
That's what friends are for
For good times and for bad times
I'll be on your side forever more
That's what friends are for

For sure,
I won't leave for sure
That's what friends are for

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I loved raining day!!!

well, I've a late night talked in the phone with fion last night for almost five and half hours. OMG!!! it's kinda crazy i think, this is the first time in my life that i talked in the phone with a girl more then two hours!!! listen... with a GIRL!!!! surprised? there is no record in my history before that i got so much to talked with a girl through the phone!! late night talked always great ~ becasue it's usually deepest heart to heart talk!! lol. *laugh* anyway, it was amazing because we can getting to know each other more but it also reminded me of the past. don worry, it's not a pain for me anymore to recall back my past as i've gone through all that and totally recover now. lol. thanks God about it!! ;-P

I am sitting in coffee bean of water front here writing my blog and listening to 'Everytime I close my eyes' repeatly (which sang by Mariah Carey, Kenny G & Babyface). wow.... it's a cool song!! it's raining outside, wet and dark too, but inside here it's dry and lit by this computer screen. The heat from the laptop is warming my legs. ;-)

YAY... i loved raining day!! this is the most precious moments for me, especially when i hear the raindrops hit against the window, the fresh coldness in the air, it's doesn't matter what's my feeling now.. whether my heart in dilemma or whether i am happy.. it's doesn't matter as long as at this moment, i enjoyed my time here.

All the wrongs, the troubles, the regrets, the sadness, the s*ck emotions are put aside as i know the rain going to wash away it. How i wish to sitting in the rain outside.. ;-) i bet i could get better if i can either lay or sit in the rain. lol. kinda crazy ya? But there's just not good to do so in the public here especially kk. anyway, i felt that i had feeling of pureness in my mind, yeah... i felt free, free from the contining thoughts that never leave my head, for now at least sitting here and looking at the raining scenery outside, it's makes me felt peace. *grinn*


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Everytime I Close My Eyes

Babyface feat. Kenny G & Mariah Carey
Please click to listen : http://www.jayyy.com/web/gequ/19346.html


[Babyface]
Girl, it's been a long long time comin' (yes it has)
But I, I know that it's been worth the wait (yeah)
It feels like springtime in winter
It feels like Christmas in June
It feels like heaven, has opened up it's gates for me & you (yeah)

[Babyface] (Mariah)
1 - Every time I close my eyes
I thank the Lord that I've got you
(That I've got you)
And you've got me too
And every time I think of it
I pinch myself 'cause,
I don't believe it's true
That someone like you loves me too

[Babyface]
Ooh girl, I think that you're truly somethin' (yes you are, yes)
And you're, you're every bit of a dream come true (yes you are, yes)
With you baby (with you baby)
It never rains and it's no wonder
The sun always shines when I'm near you
It's just blessing, that I have found somebody like you
Ooh ooh oh

(Repeat 1)

[Babyface] (Mariah)
To think of all the nights
I've cried myself to sleep (yes)
You really oughta know how much you mean to me
(It's only right) It's only right (in my life)
That you be in my life, right here with me
Oh baby, baby, yeah

*Kenny G sax solo*

[Babyface & Mariah]
I tell you girl that...

(Repeat 1) to fade


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The Wisdom and Beauty!

The best kind of friend is the kind you can sit on a porch and swing with, never say a word, and then walk away feeling like it was the best conversation you've ever had .

It's true that we don't know what we've got until we lose it, but it's also true that we don't know what we've been missing until it arrives.

Giving someone all your love is never an assurance that they'll love you back! Don't expect love in return; just wait for it to grow in their heart but if it doesn't, be content it grew in yours.

Don't go for looks; they can deceive. Don't go for wealth; even that fades away. Go for someone who makes you smile because it takes only a smile to make a dark day seem bright

Always put yourself in others' shoes. If you feel that it hurts you, it probably hurts the other person, too

The happiest of people don't necessarily have the best of everything; they just make the most of everything that comes their way.

When you were born, you were crying and everyone around you was smiling. Live your life so that when you die, you're the one who is smiling and everyone around you is crying.


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He has kept his promise!

Blogging is a beautiful thing! Trust me I hope to have a better post for today but this is my quick one as i'm in cyber cafe now, my laptop had affected virus seriously. ;-) anyway... this thing unable to effect my mood today!!!

*shout out loud* I'M VERY HAPPY TODAY!!!!!!! yeah.... i am very very happy today!!!! i wish to share my happiness to everyone of you... ;-) LOL.

How do I even describe this happiness??? hmmnnn... i'd chatted with one of my 'good' friend yesterday 1.30am, he told me that he'll back to celebrate my b'day with me this coming november! wow..... i never expected that he still remember his *promise* and kept it till today!! it's make me happy and warms my heart to know about that. he'd promised to celebrate my every birthday with me since i was 20!! the last time i met him was 3 years ago. he has missed my b'day for the past 2 years as i wasn't here!! opps... dont get misunderstanding ya.. he is just my 'good' friend now!!!!! lol. it always nice when 'good' friends get together.. *smile*

I'm out of ideas right now… I just want to blog my thoughts for the moment. !!! *sigh*.


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...... ends right here!!

Spent my night in upperstar and shenaningans' last night, but sorry that i'm not in the mood to share out what had happened last night, last night was a waste and ended it into a shit!! i've lose control with my angered last night/this morning, not at anyone, just angered by irresponsible mankind called 'hero' - who was intend to drive after drunk!!!

I've back early last night, i'm almost cry on my way back, my mind was flew back when my age was 20, it ran though the whole thing again in my head, this really disturbed me and i know that incident will burn in my head forever. that is not a present incident, but looking back, i felt sad and quite thanksful, it has changed my life for the better in general, i'd learned that if ones had 'gone' accidently, those people who are still alive will be deeply in sad.

well, i wasn't very close to them, but i was one of their friends, they're my clubbing gang. they're very young guys, they supposed to be here today, to enjoy their life and to responsible to their parents, they had it all but they had ended up lose it so quickly ;-( *sad* me and others friends was get scolded and cursed by their parents in the hospital, their parents cried and i knew that they was deeply hurt because they love their son but they'd lose their only son forever.

As i've mentioned countless times before not to drive while was drunk, i'm not going to spend my time and energy to advice, scold or shout to any 'hero' anymore, it's no point for me repeat and repeat talk the samething if there is never changes anything ;-( ones must responsible not only for own but also to one's family!! I'm not going to fill 'hero' with fear, just trying to make it clear, that my concern.... ends right here!!!


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Know my true colors just within 10 days?

i know i told myself i'd never do someting like this on here, but i really wish to know is there any posibillity that ones can know one's true colors within 10 days observation? i was talking with a friend of mine - steph online a little while this evening and we talked about one's personality and lifestyle. Then he said that he'd been observed me within 10 days and he roughly notice about my personality and then below are the conversation that followed from that part. -

Stephen says (5:52 PM):
em... ur lifestyle quite alone, u don't like ppl to understand u, but u always try to understand ppl... to suit ppl...
Stephen says (5:52 PM):
just want to make ppl happy... just like a joker...
CoNN1E says (5:53 PM):
...
Stephen says (5:53 PM):
joker always make ppl laugh... but after the performents, the joker will cyr behind the stage
Stephen says (5:53 PM):
but of course u didn't ..
Stephen says (5:53 PM):
just discripe
Stephen says (5:54 PM):
ur thinking r quite different with other ppl..
Stephen says (5:54 PM):
u observe everythinkg
Stephen says (5:54 PM):
this is just my thought..
Stephen says (5:54 PM):
at that time i don't thnk i can go into ur mind
Stephen says (5:54 PM):
u didn't share with me.
Stephen says (5:55 PM):
so i just can find out or understand what i can get.
Stephen says (5:56 PM):
u r nice person.
Stephen says (5:56 PM):
understand me.
Stephen says (5:56 PM):
u know how to make ppl feel gd.
Stephen says (5:56 PM):
tat's why they like to find u.
Stephen says (5:56 PM):
u r the speaker.
Stephen says (5:56 PM):
they listen to u
Stephen says (5:57 PM):
u love privatecy
Stephen says (5:58 PM):
this all i found out in 10 days
Stephen says (6:00 PM):
that 10 days u treat me very nice... thx for everything.
Stephen says (6:00 PM):
it's happy to have fren like u.

It's amazing!!!! and it's really surprised me with his words!! it makes me feel ashamed but a lot better to hear all of that as he'd tried his best to know about me within 10 days. I appreciated his friendship as well.. *smile* well, I'm not going to agree or denial his observation.. y'all will know me better when times come *smile*

^_^ What i can say is, there is impossible for ones to study one's mind within 10 days or even longer time no matter how smart the person is. *cheers*

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Friday's Karaoke Session

Surprisingly piagroup had karaoke session at cempaka club last night, which was suggested by head of piagroup-charl two weeks ago... wow!! suggested by charl two weeks ago!!! hmhmmm.. i'd never listen he sing before, thought of he just the type of clubbing. lol.

huh.... i was late again :-( i was only reached cempaka at 11.30pm, not intend to join them in karaoke session last night as my another group of friends keep asked me to join them in cucoon, they claimed that i always busy with my piagroup and never spend time to 'entertain' them. ;-( honestly i'm really not in a mood to hang out last night either to karaoke or clubbing, i just wish to stay at home listen to my favorite songs *sigh* , somomore, it was rained and i felt a bit lazy to drive, but i still ended up joined my piagroup members at last. I must said that there is no regret to joined them, as i'd fun times with them last night. *yeah*

Well, dovn called and informed me that our room is # 2# at 11pm... when i reached room no. #2#, caml was singing at that time, wow... that is a cool song! i noticed that he can sing 'powerstation's song very well!!! sean was sang 'waiting for you' & 'ai hen jian dan' (love is simple), those are my favorite songs, i felt LAM and being melt with those songs! lol. sean was blessed with good voice which can sing R & B songs very well. Dovn was sang 'kiss goodbye', 'zui jin' (recently), and 'bu yao hai pa' (don't be afraid), huh!! all those are my favorite songs as well, i need to admit that dovn was a very good singer, i like his voice tone, especially his face expression, he can always expressed the feeling of the song lyrics easily . ;-) Fion was 1st time joined us in karaoke, and so glad that she can sing a lot of songs, i know that she likes to sing, i can hav a good companion for sing next time!! *yeah* charl was sang 'wu xin shang hai' (not mean to hurt), yeah.. that is a cool song!! this is the 1st time i heard his voice. lol. *laugh*

My thoughts was flew on the air when i was in karaoke, this is my weakness if i listened to sad songs. it's doesn't mean that i'm unhappy or emotional, just that the songs lyrics always makes me imagine of the feeling of the editor and original singer. Karaoke night was fun, lots of laughs... i think the best part was when all of us was singing to Grasshopper and Alex Toh's song. lol. *laugh* I love that part, damn funny! everyone of us damn crazy and we was dancing as well.. lol. Everytime i heard that song i'll recall back my precious time in LKF. *smile* the last song was sang by charl, the title of the song is "that's why (you go away)" originally singer is MLTR. It's was deeply sad, everyone of us felt sad with the song lyrics, i bet everyone of us have our own story in the bottom of our heart. *hugz*

Anyway, life goes on, let it gone be by gone ~ i always remind myself. so, for those friends who have been deeply hurt before, i wish everyone of you be happy.... happiness is everywhere, and it's just depends whether u want to grab it, share a quotes with everyone of my friends here : Never let yesterday disappointment overshadow tomorrow's dreams.



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Lonely Mooncake Night?

Last night is Mooncake festival (also named as mid-autumn festival which celebrated by all the chinese community around the world). "When the moon is full, mankind is one" - for chinese, the full moon has always represented the gatherings of friends and family. Therefore, mid-autumn festival is a time for family reunions. But this chinese festival- for me, it's nothing!!

Well, there is no dinner for me and my family last night, only my QQ and my laptop be my companion. lol ;-( my parents not here with me, i stayed with my brother's buddy - lip and my sister in kk. My brother spent his night with his gf's family which is no surprise for me, my sister told me that she'd dinner with her bf's family, lip had invited me to his house for dinner but i was rejected his invitation as i felt a bit weird and unconfortable to join his family dinner especially in festival celebration, even that i knew he treated me as his sister but that kind of feeling like i've no family members in my life.. lol. *smile*

Honestly, i should be give thanks to my father God because there are a lot of relatives and friends are caring about me, i've been called by my uncle and aunt (my father's brother and sister) and aunt from my mom's side to their house for dinner, felt ashammed as i've lied them that i've joined my friends for dinner. ;-( my friends Steph and Fion intend to be my companion for dinner as well but i rather that they accompany their family in this kind of festival, my ex-hsbc collegues indra and yusni do asked me to 'buka puasa' with them but i know that it's just an excuse for them!!! *sigh* I bet they all know that i'm alone and no way to go last night, a big big *hugsssss* for all of you, appreciated and touched with the warmest caring from all of you, thanks for the concern and invitations but i rather to stayed at home alone becasue i dont want to be others' commitment. lol. Believe me all my dear friends, i've get used with this kind of situation, this is not a hard time for me, even that i am chinese, but this kind of festival really is a none for me. lol. I'm not really interested in any chinese festival (included CNY)!! lol. *laugh *

I've temporarily off my handphone last night to avoid any phone calls from relative and friends for dinner, somemore i've received a lots of 'mooncake festival' greeting sms and called from my ex-classmates which majority of them worked at kl and singapore, my friends from taiwan (my previous guests last time), my friends from Miri, kuching and johor, my ex-colleagues and friendly calls from my 2 ex-bfs! lol. ;-) we've chatted for awhile, erm.... kinda appreciated and touched with 2 of them.. they always treated me nice and i'm proud of still maintain such a good 'relation' with them which i believe not much people able to handle in this kind of situation! *hugz*

*shout out* for all of the friends i've mentioned above, i'll put u guys' name in my prayer list, may God bless all of you with his tender love. I'm the luckiest girl in the world becasue being surrounded by anGeLs ~ all of you are my angels without wing ~ *hugz*


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Why Blog ??

 Honestly, i've been thinking about why i've addicted blogging in the last few days. Blogger - it does make for a nice way to let my friends know what's going on in my daily life, it's an unique forum for me to dump all my 'random' thoughts out on the keyboard. i'd few friends told me that they've read all my entries last few days ;-) **smile** 

At first, i've been struggled with how much privacy related stuff to let out, just like an open book without cover? Those friends who know me well, they all know that i hate to share my deepest thoughts to anyone, it's not mean that i wish to be secretive or not trust to any friends besides me, i rather keep all those things to myself, just simply that i felt insecure and unconfortable if i shown my inner self to others, i dislike the kind of feeling being read and observe, i hate the feelings that others use their 'own' mind to judge my personality and guess what's inside my mind which i assure that they'll be wrong definitey! lol.



Therefore, my dear friends do listen here : i'll only share out the funniest jokes and general stuff which had happened in my daily life toward myself, my family and friends but not something that others' privacy or something that could spoil others' reputation!! **promise** I'll only share out my 'random' thoughts with u guys but definitely NOT my 'deepest' thoughts, ok? Never ever try to predict who am i as i've a whirl of thoughts that you guys could never reach my mind..lol. **sigh** Trust me, i am rational idiot ~ lol. i've a concept of what should be share out public and what should keep it private~ lol.

On my previous posts, i willing to shared with my friends about my daily life and those 'random' thoughts on my mind becasue i knew it helps my friends feel connected with what's i'm going on and i also can organize my own thoughts and see if it prompts a discussion. Jenn and shah said to me that writing blog was to write whatever i felt like to write. ;-) i still use their advise everytime i write a new post!! I don;t care the structure or the grammar, or whether it worth to read, becasue it is such a pain to think about all those stuff. Those friends know me very well know that i've a habit of write my 'Diary' since i was 20 yrs old, writing 'diary' or blog is kind of relax activity, for me ;-)

I noticed that a lot of friends visits to my blog but they never leave their comment/ suggestion ;-( some friends might not leave comment/suggestion that often! lol. anyway, all my chicks and dudes, all comments/suggestions are highly appreciated and cherishable, just feel free to post them!! **hugz**

*** the above post had been wrote last night after back from supper with my friends, just that i've spent most of my time to read e-news and msn chatted wit kim till i forgot to publish it. your bad - kim!!! and believe? i 've fall asleep at 1am, it's miracle for me!! lol.


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My NEW sites!!

**SHOUT OUT LOUD **
YAY.... yeah ... I've moved!!! from now on.. this wil be my NEW blog!!! i'll be update here soon!! **grinn** ;-)

spent the whole morning working on it, plain and simple, just the way i like it!! how's u guys think? any comments to my new sites?

opps..........!!!!! i've forgot to feed my QQ this early morning, i gotta run.. bye!! lol.



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What Kind Of Soul Are You?

You Are a Visionary Soul

You are a curious person, always in a state of awareness.Connected to all things spiritual, you are very connected to your soul.You are wise and bright: able to reason and be reasonable.Occasionally, you get quite depressed and have dark feelings. You have great vision and can be very insightful.In fact, you are often profound in a way that surprises yourself.Visionary souls like you can be the best type of friend.You are intuitive, understanding, sympathetic, and a good healer. Souls you are most compatible with: Old Soul and Peacemaker Soul

What Kind of Soul Are You?